Episode 22: Side Story「Feelings I Don’t Understand」

I should probably head to bed…

As I lie in bed and close my eyes, I find myself thinking back on today.

So much really happened.

Takanashi-san and I finally got to say what we wanted to say to each other.

I told him my feelings, and he shared his own story honestly so he could face them.

But there was one thing I just couldn’t understand, so I didn’t bring it up.

When I heard that he’d already done the things he did for me for his childhood friend too, I felt a little… how should I put it… like something was bothering me?

It just felt strange.

They’ve known each other for so long, so it’s only natural, but I wonder why it bothered me…

And the other things I remember…

Having someone outside my family pat my head, being held, and then me patting someone else’s head, all of it was a first for me.

It really warms your heart…

If it’s just a head pat, is it okay to do that whenever?

…Next time, I’ll ask Takanashi-san if I can pat his head again.

I only did it without thinking because I saw Takanashi-san crying, but maybe it felt the same way when he did it for me.

Well, I have to wake up early tomorrow, so even though it’s a bit early, I should sleep.

After all, the time has finally come to show the results of my practice.

I have even more things I want to thank him for now, but first, the bento!

Oh… I forgot to check if Takanashi-san is actually coming during lunch tomorrow.

…Wait! Since we’ve become close, it’s okay to send a message on RAIN, right?

We exchanged contact info but I haven’t used it once yet, so the time has finally come for that too.

I wonder if Takanashi-san will reply…?

I’m a little nervous. What should I say…?

…And there I was, agonizing for ten minutes over a single sentence just to ask about tomorrow.