LMLCG – Episode 22 – Interludes “Feelings I Don’t Understand”
by akachaI suppose it’s time for bed…
As I lay down on my bed and close my eyes, the events of the today came flooding back.
So many things happened.
Takanashi-san and I were able to say what we wanted to say.
I told him how I felt, and in response, Takanashi-san was honest about himself so that he could face those feelings sincerely.
But there was still one thing I just couldn’t understand, and I chose not to bring it up.
When I heard that Takanashi-san had already done for his childhood friend the very things he did for me… It made me feel, how should I put it… uneasy?
Anyway, it felt weird.
Since they’d known each other for a long time, it’s only natural that such things would’ve happened. So why did it bother me?
And something else comes to mind…
It was the first time someone outside of my family had ever patted my head, or held me in their arms. And the first time I had ever patted someone’s head myself.
It was a warm and comforting feeling…
Since it’s just a pat on the head, would it be okay to do it again?
…Next time, I’ll ask Takanashi-san and see if he’ll let me do it again.
I couldn’t help but do that when I saw Takanashi-san crying. Maybe he felt the same way when he did it to me.
Well then, since I have to get up early tomorrow, I suppose I should go to sleep a bit earlier than usual.
After all, the time has finally come to show the results of my practice.
There are so many things I want to thank him for, but first, his lunch!
Ah… I forgot to ask Takanashi-san if he’ll come during lunch break tomorrow.
…That’s right! No that we’ve become closer, it should be okay to message him on RAIN, right?
Even though we exchanged contact info, I haven’t used it once. But finally, the time has come to put it to use.
I wonder if Takanashi-san will reply…
I’m getting a little nervous. What should I write…?
…And so, it took me ten minutes just to compose a simple message asking about tomorrow.